Sitting back thinking over the past few years about life’s events. What would have happened if I had done this? What would have happened if I had done that? Would things still be the same or would you have taken a different turn? Is there something major you’d change or just a small change? How many people would you remove or bring into your life? What relationships would you keep or get rid of?
In sitting here pondering, you realize after a moment that yes, it’s just a what if or I should have. You can’t change anything so just move forward. Keep pushing forward with your life and don’t stop and go backwards. By all means stop and smell the roses. Don’t dwell on things that you can’t change. You can’t do anything about them so move on.
My heart has been broken multiple times. I’ve been through a very traumatic life so far and I fear it isn’t ever going to end. With the feelings that I have for certain loved ones, I don’t mind them at all because we all have them. We love our family, aside from those that we don’t like at all. Don’t tell me you don’t have any that you don’t love because you know you go to the family gatherings and you mean mug someone the entire time.
Romantic feelings are going. I don’t feel like getting hurt again. I mean come on. How hard is it to be in a relationship with someone now a days? Conflicting personalities, points of view, vocabulary, etc. play a role in our relationships and can ultimately cause relationship issues later on after the “newness” wears off.
So I’ve decided not to let those feelings get out and run away. Those romantic feelings are going to be tucked away in my own Pandora’s box. Why? Cause if they’re there, I don’t have to worry about them coming out and causing issues. I remember going there and to the extent of speaking about them. That ended 95% of the time resulting in me being hurt. I’d rather not go through that again.
Feeling a certain way and the opposite not feeling the same does indeed hurt. Especially it hurts when you express your feelings and with their response you feel like you’ve made the biggest mistake in the world. A lot of the time we feel like we have the foot in mouth syndrom after we hit that send button on our phone.
So let’s lock these feelings away and move on. That relationship isn’t going to happen. We aren’t going to have that relationship, nor be at that level again. Those things aren’t going to be said anymore. Those feelings don’t exist anymore. They’ve all gone and things are changing. No need to worry about it. Those things won’t be said again even if I do feel that way again.
If I ever feel that way in the future, you won’t know because I won’t say a thing.