Conversations with similar views. Agreeing on the same thing. Sharing similar stories. Thinking everything was okay. I thought we were on the same page. I thought we had the same thoughts. I was completely and utterly wrong.
I was wrong to think that you and I could agree on something permanently. I see now that it isn’t the case at all because you ran to the money. You wanted to be bailed out again so you ran to the same person you and I had talked about and agreed that he had anger and control issues. What changed? Oh wait, it’s the money that’s there.
Until you go against them or stand up to them, they are going to ‘be there for you’ but once you stand up to them, they are going to take things away. You said so yourself. You told me they tried to take something away from you and you fought against them about it. Confiding in me that you need to straighten out your life and leave someone, I was there to support you. I was there talking to you and answering your questions.
Apparently I was blind sided by you as well. I thought things were fine. I guess that was my first mistake. I can no longer confide in people because they go behind my back and talk crap and spread rumors. It’s nice to know that you think you can talk to people and you end up stabbed in the back. I will never understand them. I don’t ever want to understand them. I don’t want to be a part of something that can hurt others so deeply.
I guess it runs in their blood. It’s there high to hurt someone. What have I done? I’m trying to move on. I’m trying to do better. I’m doing better. I guess their true colors come out and it’s only a matter of time before they do. I just don’t get it. I guess I’m not suppose to. I’m moving on and I’m not going to let anyone get me down. Tears may fall from my eyes but they won’t last long at all.